The Right Thing

Today, I'm going to start by taking it back and end by moving forward. And hopefully I'll stop talking in clichés and motivational phrases. But who knows. Maybe I won't.

I would like to say I want to remember who I was, if ever I was anyone, but I was always terrible. I used to tell myself I know I'm a good person despite everything, but I feel that every chance I've had to make the wrong decision and do bad, I have. How could I have ever thought I was good?

There are things I might not be able to change, but this is one I think I can. I've never tried. I am selfish and I hurt people, and everyone is not a joke. Everyone has feelings and the only people who deserve them hurt are the ones who do the same to others without remorse.

I tried to excuse myself the other day and say, I wasn't ready, I didn't know. Maybe that's how it works, though. I wouldn't know, but I have to figure it out.

oh i see now it's just smoke